Delusional Faith is simply believing when it’s beyond reason to believe; believing as though the facts, that your eyes and the world perceive, do not have the final say. Believing BEYOND them.
I hope in sharing our story that “delusional faith” can be ignited in others, for whatever they may be believing big for.
Dare to simply believe.
HOW THE NAME CAME ABOUT
As I sat on the couch feeding Sophia by bottle, I was overwhelmed with gratitude of God’s faithfulness. I cradled this 2-year old, still unable to hold her head up steadily nor sit on her own, and watched her suckle the bottle. My eyes filled with tears as I glanced over at her attached pulse-oximeter. She was oxygenating like a champ… WHILE EATING. With her breathing issues, she wasn’t supposed to be able to learn to suck, swallow, and breathe simultaneously.
I thought back to the 8 months I watched a ventilator breathe for this spunky girl. Even after being able to breathe on her own, a feeding tube would remain taped to her face until right before her 2nd birthday. I remembered feeling so silly telling others, especially medical staff, that I just knew that Sophia was going to breathe… yet, here she was breathing. The following year, I remembered feeling so silly, again, telling others that I just knew she was going to eat by mouth… Now I sat there with her, watching her do the impossible. Yet, once again I was feeling silly for sharing with family and friends what I felt that I knew.
God had placed in my spirit that we would build a new home and it would be symbolic of the rebuilding of our lives after such a hard hit all-around. Financially, things had been the worse ever. We had watched the new house slowly go up over the past few months. The foundation “coincidentally” being poured on the anniversary of losing Nicholas, Sophia’s twin brother, confirmed further in my heart that I had heard God correctly. Yet, our old house remaining on the market for almost a year put a damaging dent in my belief. We were told that our new home would go on the market within a month if we could not close the deal. This was SO much more than material gain that we were hoping for… it was the same battle we had been fighting, just on a different battlefield. It was claiming favor in unfavorable circumstances; believing in something that seemed completely out of grasp.
I texted our realtor the day our new home went on the market, “I know I sound delusional but I just know that house is still ours…” That’s when I felt that jolt in my spirit. “That’s exactly how you need to believe… as if you’re delusional.” I finally made a solid connection to the deeper understanding of verses like Hebrews 11:1 (NIV), “Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we DO NOT SEE.” Despite the circumstances, I was somehow confident in our hopes and assured in the invisible promises.
Two months later, against all odds, we moved into our “promised land.” 🙂
Delusional faith. Despite how “false or unrealistic” a belief may seem at the moment, still believing when it’s beyond reason to believe is exactly where your faith muscles start to grow. As much as I’ve seen the impossible in our journey, it’s still tough to believe sometimes… but then I remind myself, “Just believe..as if I were, indeed, delusional.”
May your “delusional faith” have you dreaming bigger and bolder than ever before. 🙂
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