For months, I could feel the not-so-subtle Holy Spirit nudge to come and reread my blog entries. I thought this was weird since all my blog entries were event-based. I mean who has the time to reread snippets of your own life… I lived it already. Then again, when I wrote about it.
How do you even rewrite something that’s already happened? The events hadn’t changed.
After finally rereading one of the older entries, I realized that no, the events hadn’t changed but my perspective had. My perspective of the truth had evolved. There wasn’t anything significant. The bigger picture I wrote about was still the same, but little details had changed to match up with the Bible much more (because now I just knew more of the Bible). More time in the Word, more time with God, more seeking to renew my mind… It made some of the commentary I had written just plain incorrect.
At the end of one entry, I wrote something along the lines of “Move, God, move. Move like only You can.” It made me raise an eyebrow and giggle. How dramatic. More importantly, how inaccurate! God didn’t need to “move” for this mountain to move. I didn’t have the understanding yet of who I was in Christ when I wrote that. I approached the situation with such an Old Covenant mind frame.
Now I know that Christ lives IN me! He’s able to do “immeasurably more than all I can ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work in me.” (Eph. 3:20) My previous stance was like waiting for a check to come in the mail, when the money has already been direct deposited in your bank… AND it’s waaaaaayyyy more than you thought you were getting!
I completely understood why Holy Spirit kept tugging at me to come back, reread and edit some details. There had been some growth and some details didn’t match up to what I now knew. God had so graciously welcomed me to step out and start writing before I “knew enough” or was “experienced enough,” but I still held the responsibility to pursue more of Him so that He could use me as a vessel of truth. His truth.
We never know it all or have it all together, but as we gain new revelation, we need to make sure that we correct any places we’ve misstepped. It will happen if you’re willing to step out, still learning.
So about 15 of my posts now read “UNDER REVIEW.” I’m gladly revising those posts though because it means I’ve grown. Plus, I didn’t want to risk someone reading that one misstep of a detail and feed that Old Covenant mentality. The cost is too high. Our authority lies in knowing who we are in Christ. Without the fullness of that truth, we are defeated through our lack of knowledge.
You’ve possibly read these following verses many times before. When you “chew” on it this time, savor it once again, allowing it to further nourish you. There’s something new, something deeper, in it every time if we take it in like the life that it is to us.
“17 I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. 18 I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in his holy people, and his incomparably great power for us who believe…” Eph. 1:17-19
How beautiful this walk with Him is, Him revealing His unimaginable love for us, more and more. This is my prayer for you today. This is also my prayer for myself… that we know Him better. Not just about Him, but actually know Him.